i'd give up forever to touch you 'cause i know that you feel me somehow. you're the closest to heaven that i'll ever be and i don't want to go home right now. all i can taste is this moment and all i can breathe is your life. 'cause sooner or later it's over; i just don't want to miss you tonight. and i don't want the world to see me 'cause i don't think that they'd understand. when everything's made to be broken i just want you to know who i am. and you can't fight the tears that ain't coming or the moment of truth in your lies. when everything seems like the movies, yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive.

that could light up this whole town, i haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down.


why is that song so catchy?

OMG JACK BARAKAT STOPPED HIS ADHD MOMENT TO ASK ME FOR BIRTHDAY SEX
OMG ALEX GASKARTH TALKED TO ME AND SAID HAPPY BIRTHDAY
OMG I WAS SO CLOSE TO ALL TIME LOW TWICE THIS SUMMER
OMG THEY ALL HAVE SUCH COOL HAIR
OMG JACK STRIPPED FOR US. WELL, IN HIS OWN SPECIAL WAY
OMG I HAVE ALEX GASKARTH'S CUSTOM GUITAR PICK

...now i'm all good.

i'm so glad you said something about it, 'cause i didn't want to bring it up but at the same time i really want to be able to talk to you about it, because we all know how much i love to talk about stuff like this, haha. need i remind you about zolby? sorry if i seemed mean about it in first, to be honest i really didn't know. i sort of laughed it off and didn't take it seriously. and really, it doesn't bother me at all. i won't lie and say it's not a little weird but i'm so unbelievably happy for you, you have no idea. really. i just want to be able to hang out with the two of you without it being really super awkward, because i love you to death and talking to him lately has been odd. haha. you don't have to worry about keeping any of it from me at all. like i said, i love it. and i'm really happy you said something before theatre started and a wholeeee new level of awkward ensued. because i would hate to not be able to talk to two of my friends without feeling uncomfortable. and as weird as this sounds, you have my blessing? haha fiddler on the roof flashback. i am tevye, yo. but really, it's true. like, you have total permission to hook me up with somebody and we can double date. there's no way i'm going to get in the way of it, even if i did still care about...that. which i don't, that was forever ago and just...ew. yeah. not what we're talking about.

so go for it, hun! there's only oneeee way tooo sayyy those threee words for yoooouuuuuu!

i love you.

and not just 'cause that song came on shuffle right then <3

if that's two days, this year just might kill me.
i still can't decide if i'm excited or wary.
maybe one-act needs to start? yeah.
or i just need to hear alex gaskarth's voice again.

...more sleep would definitely do the trick.